Just realized something.
I’m turning 20 this year. I barely remembered turning 19.
How’s this for a post.
I’m going to admit something. I am not sure if it’s exactly a surprise but back in high school, people used to see me as a “player” of some sort. I don’t say the same shit to every single girl. I genuinely liked them for the most part.
Reflecting towards my high school alter ego, I saw myself as confused. Nothing more, nothing less. I cannot fathom where this “player” image is coming from. My shortest relationship was six months but that doesn’t really relate to anything I guess.
I did talk to a few girls but I forgot about them and at the same exact fucking time, they forgot about me coincidentally. I guess I “teased” or sweet talked them back then but it is probably because I was stupid but it was fatal attraction of lust of some sort.. I’ve never done anything with any one of my past girlfriends. I am no player. High school can be really stupid.
It is stupid.
Player. Pft. I am not sounding bitter at the fact that my friends renounced that ugly title to me but I know who I am. They don’t. My true friends never called me that. They tell me I’m the opposite. I don’t mean “oh you’re not a player” but “oh you’re so nice you’re so this that blah.” Stuff like that. It helps a lot knowing that.
anyway, I don’t care about them. All I care about is my love of my life. yes I am still with my Tiffany (Lol her english name is easier to type). It’s been four years and everything’s so, I don’t know. It’s indescribable. The end.
[I don’t want to sound like a sap]
I forgot I even had a tumblr.
I never updated anyone with my summer. From what I remember
- Came home for the summer and stayed for a whole… 4 months? something like that.
- China china china china china.
- Came home again. I only had 2 more months to spend.
yadayadayada it’s a whatever summer. College sucks. I like high school better.
Only one more month until our three year anniversary. Holy shit.
I flippin’ love messin’ with people’s heads. If you discover a lie it’s either you are hella good or you’re just one hell of a stalker. Either way I congratulate you.
LOL I heard that Rebecca Black is attending Huntington Beach High School next year. GODDAMN not that far from where I used to live. shiiiet.
Every time we see each other, it’s always right where we left off last time we saw each other, not physically but emotionally. Physically, we both did a lot of growing up. You matured immensely becoming even more radiant and beautiful last time I saw you.
You really don’t know what it’s like seeing the girl you love right in front of you especially if it’s on rare occasions. I can’t really describe it but it’s the greatest thing ever how someone so full of radiance can lighten up the darkest hour of your day. It’s amazing how even when she gets me at my hottest temper and I burst out with anger, at the end of the day, I still love her all the same. Her flaws and imperfections don’t matter to me, I still like everything about her. What’s even more amazing that even on rare occasions, my feelings never left. Not once. Not my thoughts either.
